Blog#3 is this for real

Really? Really? Is this for real? Today was another reality check day. Besides for shopping for Israeli appliances to  be taken on our lift. Leaving america turned real or shall I say more real when I sat down to eat Dinner..Which turned into a miniature emotional breakdown. Sunday's in America is what I coin family day. Today we did just that. For the first time in a while we went to Brooklyn to visit my bro and his family. Ate lunch with him and my sis + 12 kids kh. As I began to mute out voices around me I wondered what life would be without them. No need to refer to death here I know no one is dying and no need to shed tears...especially this time of year I dont need  g_ds wrath for wasteful tears. Its just that as mentioned in my first blog family brings stability and having such a wonderful family as mine is, its hard,so very hard to get up, walk away and say goodbye. As most of you who read this blog may know my siblings and even envy the fact that we are so dedicated to helping each other out. I wish for it to remain this way. This is a hard thing to swallow...knowing I can't just help my family when called upon, or when I deem necessary. There are alot more aspects to family and im sure all those who made aliyah know and go through the emotions all the time..... How life goes on without them and how one adapts to their absence is a wonder to me. I certainly hope one day they will come too.. but the reality is as of now they are not.